4/28/03

Over time, my tastes turned more towards the hardboiled detective genre. Say what you will about my wussy personality, I like stories where the cynical slightly-tarnished hero strides fearlessly (or not) into the fray to find out who killed who when with what and emerges beat to shit but triumphant, or at least alive. Crooked cops, sneering wiseguys, neolithic thugs, innocent bystanders who aren't what they seem and femme fatals are just yummy stuff to me. Especially them femme fatals -- gotta love 'em. Unraveling sinister mysteries became a regular brain gym workout, and Sam Spade, Philip Marlowe, Lew Archer, Travis McGee and crew were my smart-talking, punch-absorbing lowlife friends and companions on and off the road.

It would seem that my chief interest in writing right now is exposition and essay -- at least, that's what I've been concentrating on here. On the other hand, the market is pretty thin for paid pundits these days of blogs and warlords exposing their inner navels for free on the internet, so in the hopes of finding a profit center for my verbal center I'm driftng back towards yellowdog popular genre fiction, what used to be called pulp when cheap magazines could still turn a profit by skimping on paper quality. I've always had a gift for gab, a touch of the blarney, a mouth that wouldn't quit, call it what you like. An early and extended course of Heinlein juviniles plus my postgraduate work with the afforementioned gumshoes left me well-stocked with snarky dialog templates, and on a clear day I can almost make out character voice, motive and development. Given that I ever come up with a plot, I might actually get somewhere. All I'll say at the present is, I'm working on it.

With all this bathing in the inner lives of fleabitten, self-loathing private eyes, I've become prone to seeing myself as others see me and not liking the view. I mean, here I am, fifty-somewhat, self-employed (barely), scraping by in a tiny house on the wrong side of town with an invalid wife and a stalled career as a wandering minstral, all the promise of youth and talent seemingly pissed away down a hundred ratholes of time and -- okay, okay, you get the idea already. My seeming lack of anything much of a curriculum vitae chafes me in places that long ago grew inch-thick calluses for this very reason. Maybe it's just age and a slightly more sedentary circumstance that's started rubbing them off again, or maybe I'm just having more bad days than I used to.

Naturally I have a host of yeahbut arguements to head 'em off at the past, all the slopshop excuses and stories of my rebel life and education. And like our pal Scotty sez, there's something in that. But the other day it struck me just how much like a noire character I am.

Not a hero, you understand -- not the semishaven troubled loner with clear gaze seeking his fortune amidst the corrupt dregs of a live-fast die-cheap society. I'm not the one who asks the drunk under the freeway bridge what color car hit the runaway girl. I'm not even the feckless loser with too much history who blunders into trouble and spends the rest of the story trying to get out again, usually falling in a) love b) bed and c) innumerable boobie traps along the way. Okay, not quite, anyways.

But check it out -- here I am, unconventional to an unconventional extreme, living a life I chose despite throes of opportunities along the way, a smartypants without portfolio who continues to pursue his beat up dreams in the face of any amount of disillusion and dissuation, sticking to a code of ethics entirely uncalled for in his present circumstances, busily displaying loyalty and honesty and care and all that humane stuff as I claw my way through midlife adversity, guitar in one hand, sawsall in the other. It's standard practice to call a guy like that a lot of all-American names like loser, wimp and sucker, but when I put it in the context of the noire menu of virtues, it starts coming out more like good guy.

Of course, the same kind of analysis can lead to another, quite different description, one not nearly as saintly within the lexicon of the pulp world: beatnik. Exactly the same traits, only stripped of their rugged individualism and tarred with the rancid brush of seedy eccentricity. Swell. Fine. Just what I needed, another cliche to wear around my neck like a moldy horse collar. Oh wow, man, it's a bohemian musician. It's a member of the counter culture. Hey, man, do you like smoke pot, man? Like where's your pad, man? Are you on your way to a gig? You must know a lotta crazy chicks, huh? How're those situational ethics doing? It's bad enough that I'm an apparent hangdog mediocrity in a world that worships the sleek shiny well-fed paragons of smarmy comformism -- now I gotta be held in disrepute even by the disreputable?

Sigh. So what's the derby here? How does the cheap novel of my life characterize me, anyways? Do I come off as Boston Blackie or Maynard G. Krebbs?

Somebody read the next chapter and lemme know -- the suspense is killing me.

4/21/03

http://www.webpagesthatsuck.com/

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Quite frankly, I don't give a rat's ass what the kool kids do for web design -- 99% of them don't get paid either. Frames are a cheap easy way to bang a site into some semblence of shape. Arguments that frames are a "violation" of the "spirit" of the web leave me cold -- and as for search engines, po' po' y'all. I'm bad. Get over it.

I'll admit that I'm pretty tired of scrollbars plastering my pages and ready to consolidate some. I'd like to learn Perle and Javascript and CGI too, but I don't really have time to go back to school or the money to buy high-end coding software for my hobby sites. And the first rule of practical poverty is don't mess with the mule if it pulls the plow.

At some point I'll probably encounter a thriftstore book on CSS that doesn't put me to sleep in the first ten seconds I crack it. Either that or somebody'll give me some snorky-dorky orphaned version of Dreamweaver and I'll start doing everything with umpteen million internested tables that I don't have to write myself too. But as far as I'm concerned, "web design" is an oxymoron -- it's plain that the guys who invented HTML could have cared less about design elements. That's why they had to kluge it with frames and CSS and all that other tinkertoy jive in the first place. Most of the snootass criticism flying around looks suspiciously like the "my guitar is better than your guitar" blather that people who can't play dink use to put each other down in the music world.

In ten or twenty years, maybe HTML 10 will allow the nontechnoholics to put together a web page with the formal grace of oh, say, the average magazine ad without having to learn Martian first. But I'm not holding my big fat breath.

T

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>Quite frankly, I don't give a rat's ass what the kool kids do for web
>design...

Frames are bad not for arty farty reasons. They were supposed to solve a lot of visual problems, but failed badly cause they can not be bookmarked. You put a lot of time into your page, but I can't even bookmark anything but the front page. That means I have to putz all over looking for (while hoping you have not deleted it) for the page I wanted to see again.

> I'll admit that I'm pretty tired of scrollbars plastering my pages and
>ready to consolidate some...
>
> At some point I'll probably encounter a thriftstore book on CSS that
>doesn't put me to sleep in the first ten seconds I crack it.

How about a totally free source on the web that shows you how to use CSS, or Cascading Style Sheets. It is easy to make one page that controls how your site looks. If you want to make a change to the site, you only have to change the one page.

Talk about sweet!
ck

http://www.htmlhelp.com/reference/css/style-html.html
http://www.htmlhelp.com/reference/css/style-html.html#external
Or just do a search for style sheets tutorials.

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> Frames are bad not for arty farty reasons... I can't even bookmark anything
>but the front page. That means I have to putz all over looking for (while
>hoping you have not deleted it) for the page I wanted to see again.

Shay, mishter, thash the shaddest shtory I ever heard... I guess I should care about this, but my site isn't all that hard to find stuff in -- everything but the main articles are in the archives, and the archives have an index.

>How about a totally free source on the web that shows you how to use
>CSS...
>
> Talk about sweet!

Talk about gobbledegook. This page is just as involuted and dereferenced as everything else on CSS I've ever seen--and yes, I have gone and googled it. It seems like nobody can explain CSS, just index it. I don't need the details of "The optional TYPE attribute is used to specify a media type--text/css for a Cascading Style Sheet--allowing browsers to ignore style sheet types that they do not support. Configuring the server to send text/css as the Content-type for CSS files blah blah BLAH" Not in the first damned paragraph, f'chrissakes! Where's the freaking overview? Doesn't anybody know what "summary" means?

CSS and Javascript and Perle and CGI are programmer's toys, not design tools. Tweaking machine-heads can be kept busy and happy for hours by them, but they're opaque to the rest of us, and they're about as intuitive as differential calculus. Their inclusion in the web specification is seemingly intended to make Kool Kid HTML too tedious for mere mortal laymen noncoders to deal with, and they mark the boundry between sites that are just sites and those firmly grasped in the jaws of that icon of Amurikan Glory, commercial exploitation.

I hate to be the one to break it to you, but not everyone secretly pines to be a programmer. If I could set up a website like I design a document in PageMaker I would. In the meantime, I'm doing what I can with what time and patience I have. If that offends you, I'm truly sorry. But unless and until they start giving starving artists matching grants to go out and hire wirebrains to program their sites for them, it's what you're gonna get.

Sigh -- I suppose I'll be forced to learn all this crap eventually -- but what's the advantage? I'm in no danger of overwhelming the bandwidth on any of my websites right now, and I don't see that whizzing them up with The Latest And Greatest is gonna make any difference. There's just no bang for the time-bucks involved. Time I spend learning CSS could be better spent writing music -- or tg essays for that matter. Or having sex. Or sleeping. Or just about anything, when you get right down to it.

But hey -- you've given me enough material for a Gazette. Thanks!

egards,

T

4/14/03

Amber Tide first started performing American Pie back in the 80's when we played alcohol joints and discovered it to be as reliable a crowdpleaser in college bars as Satin Sheets was in honkeytonks. Over the years, I'd had considerable opportunity to debate the worthiness of the piece, and found it to be something of a paradox -- a tightly constructed, admirably worded, memorably tuned work with an esthetic somewhere between Mighty Mouse Comics and Reader's Digest. S, who had literally dreamed of being the author of said work, was flabbergasted at this cranky assessment and demanded an explanation. My response blossomed into a fifteen minute snooze-drunk Thaddeus University Lecture Series discourse on the Three Kinds Of Poetry (or is it four?)

First off, we acknowledge the existence of something called poetry, distinct from prose. It has at least some semblence of difference from the stuff in newspapers and essays and novels and screaming racist broadsides and such. Individual specimens of same may or may not be metered and rhymed, broken into lines of arbitrary length, make use of elements such as metaphors and similes or contain references to howling gales, passionate bosoms or fields of tranquil flowers. However, under many if not most circumstances, they are recognizable as species of the genus poetus..

Good enough. Now, most everyday poetry can be more accurately described as verse: writing featuring the aforementioned meter and rhyme. These design elements came into usage, according to most theories, as an aid to memorization in preliterate societies. I can believe it. When I myself memorized pi to 100 decimals back in the 6th grade, I did it by breaking it down into rhythmic figures -- three point one four one five nine two six five three five eight nine seven nine... By contrast, my younger brother, who did it first, set it to a classical tune whose name escapes me but which is frequently sung with the words "Passengers will please refrain from flushing toilets while the train is standing in the station I love you..." To each his own.

The pedigree of poetry thus predates that of prose, which one would presume is almost always written down, and this antiquity must be given its due. But a lotta verse is just umpty-bumpty prose. The differences between Moby Dick and The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner are better discussed in terms of plot and character development than innate textual implications. You can't really expose much difference between an epic and an epic, however weirdly constructed they may be. The same is true for essays (most of Alexander Pope), ghost stories (Edgar Allen Poe's The Raven), pornography (dirty limericks) or philosophical discussions (Byron and Shelly and Keats, et al). It is graceful pencraft to transform a mere expository piece into iambic pentameter or whatever, but it only counts as poetry on the most general level. Surely there is more to the muse than this.

Next up the evolutionary ladder we find poetry with genuine artisan intention, that attempts to perform one or more of the functions of craft -- beauty, elegance of design, emotional impact. Certainly great prose writing may attempt the same things, especially in such areas as rhetoric and oration. But in the practice of poetry there is a strong predilection towards eloquence as an end unto itself. This dimension shows up side by side with exposition in even the most humdrum works. The very versification of Ancient Mariner gives its story of suffering and redemption a nobility and detachment from the ordinary that otherwise requires a church pulpit or a crackling campfire to evoke.

But beauty is as beauty does. All too often, the flowery phrases of the classic ode mask what comes down to just another essay or philosophical treatise or lewd joke. Better said, perhaps, certainly more memorable -- who can quarrel with the superiority of "Let slip the dogs of war" to "KIIIILLL!!!!"? All the same, the place where the poetic Dunlap meets the pavement in earnest is, like Reverend Chumleigh says, "Beyond Cute and Ugly."

Poetry truly diverges from prose when it performs tasks of communication that prose can't handle. Poetry can convey multiple meanings with a single phrase, meanings which dovetail or diverge wildly, even contradict. It can describe the interior process of a man's mind wringing sense from sensory experiences, or serve as a seer's crystal ball, out of which the reader is invited to divine their own understanding without restriction. Poetry can even violate exposition entirely, abolishing significance in the name of purely sonic expression.

Let's see you do that with a newspaper article.

And, to close the grand circle of this essay or story or whatever the heck it is with some pretense of structural integrity, this is exactly my quibble with American Pie . As a song, it's memorable, hummable and even enjoyable, but as poetry it hasn't got a pot or a window. Why? Because good poetry (okay, what I like -- de gustabus non yak yak yak) isn't just a cypher, an encrypted message where Everything Means Something Else. In AP, McLean says "The Jester sang for the King and Queen/ in a coat he borrowed from James Dean." Well, isn't that special. Is it a reflection on the relationship between those who rule and those who bring them wisdom in the guise of entertainment? En oh. It's a trickyshit way of saying "Bob Dylan was insincere when he performed for John and Jackie Kennedy, and he stole his style from 50's movies," which might be true but certainly isn't anything profound enough to warrant the kind of Mystical Mythical Prosody he bathes it in like blackstrap molasses over burnt pancakes. There are fragments of poetry here and there in the song, but there's also such a titanic flush of pretension and obfuscation masquerading as cosmick trooth that it bids fair to wash the honest bits right down the drain.

Down at the end of the ditty, there's a moment of mild revelation: "And the three men I admire most/ the Father Son and the Holy Ghost/ they caught the last train for the coast/ the day the music died." I've seen enough earnest speculation on the Real Meaning of that qudruplet to nourish my rosebushes for years to come, but all of it centers on the question of who these three guys really are -- because it's obvious to the speculators that the whole song is just a secret message waiting to be translated and not a collective expression of any importance.

McLean cuts his own throat with that last verse. He offers a glimpse of what a song plumbing the roots of pop and the continual universal cycles of boom and bust, decay and renewal could offer for ambiguous, engaging lyrical content. "They caught the last train for the coast" isn't quite "I shall wear gray flannel trousers and walk upon the beach," or even "a highwayman came riding," but it's at least a by-gawd poetic trope. But by then it's way too late -- behind it lies Uncle Donnie's Acrostic History Of Sixties Music With Secret Decoder Ring Included, and there's no way one bird call, no matter how clear, can hide a fart that loud and sustained.

That's sort of like it came out, anyway. And then we went back to sleep.

4/7/03

This kind of approach isn't what you'd want to see in a brain surgeon or an aircraft mechanic, but it's actually a superior strategy for a creative artist. After all, if you learn everyone else's techniques by formal rote methods first, how will you ever come up with something really New and Original? And we all know that in the commodity-driven art climate we bask in here in the g-g-g-Great USA, N&O are the keys to the castle of success. Okay, you can stop laughing now. Seriously, even totally derivative posers have to do something to break from the pack, and how can you do that without an original thought in your head? Don't everyone answer at once.

My most recent quest into the realm of the muses has been in the area of audio engineering. I've been playing with tape recorders since I was 7 years old -- you might say iron oxide runs in my veins, right along with the sawdust and those megalomanic hormones I so assiduously suppress. Recording is, of course, an equipment intensive artform (or as we used to say about scuba diving, "equpment-expensive"), and in the past I've been forced to indulge my lifelong passion only minimally, not being blessed with enough inheritance or drug deal profit to put together a professional facility. But with the recent avalanche of consumer-level pro audio gear and the subsequent boom in the near-term obsolete used market, I've actually been able to pick up some of the more rudimentary items of The Real Shit. I can boast that I now have an actual record company in my back bedroom -- small maybe, but doughty.

When I first aspired to get serious with recording, I perceived it as an industrial process, taking the pure limpid strains of music and reducing them to sausage in the meatgrinder of electromechanical reproduction. Not that that's a bad thing, you understand. But as I looked more closely, I began to realize that, just as sausage is a comestibles without identifiable relation to pig, cow or whatughshudderever, recorded music too is a sound product with qualities unique unto itself. The tracking, reverbing, limiting, filtering and stereo imaging of even cursory recording are a radical transformation of what started out as compression fronts in free airspace, whether a classical orchestra or the Sex Pistols.

The real frontier of recording technique as art is undoubtedly in the mix. While much has been done and remains to do with the capturing of primary tracks, cutting-edge mixing takes that raw material and refines it in a hundred new and remarkable ways. Remix takes the process a step farther, dissecting and reconstituting previously finished materials like a collage artist tearing up old magazines. As an OLD-old-school electronic musician (BA 1974), I've been right overjoyed to have survived long enough to get to participate, in my small mean way, in this massive technological acceleration of form, made possible mostly by the advent of digital audio.

Despite its geekly underpinnings, the most consistent artistic similarity I find for mixing isn't programming or graphic design -- it's cooking. Instead of becoming intimately familiar with the chemistry of a particular recipe, you just do what the book says and come up with your own serving suggestion. And in mixing, a lot of the work involves making it sound like something else that you already like -- figuring out the recipes for grunge or smooth jazz or sparkly acoustic production. You don't have to really know why the settings work the way they do, just follow the formula and it comes out right. Much of what passes for mixing "theory," on line or in books, is just assemblages of little tricks and hints and kinks and shortcuts and secrets that get the results that you need, and never mind the why.

Selecting and assembling the menu, or the track, is where the average cook or mixer starts to get creative, and what might be just another taco in one pair of hands becomes a throbbing divine meal in another. It's all a matter of taste. But no matter what the dish becomes, it starts with the same tortillas. Sure, every cook eventually invents a recipe they really like, maybe a bunch. An exulted few might even be versed enough in the mad science of it all to create amazing new stuff from scratch. But most of us just buy the box at the store and whip it up in the blender, and the cake comes out just fine. In the case of recording, there are plenty of Betty Crocker goodies, from presets in plugins to rackmount mastering consoles, all swearing to give you "that sound" without you lifting a finger -- just a credit card.

Can I say, though, that I'm really an audio artist? Or is all this cookie-cutter styling just another kind of paint-by-numbers? My throw-cold-water-on-the-copulating-dogs side is always eager to downgrade everything I do to Not As Good. Still, the whole idea of this is to take the scenic route to artistic maturity, and there are plenty of cookbooks to plunder. Heck, I don't even have to eat my mistakes.

Whoops -- 'scuse me, I think something's burning. No, wait -- it's a CD. Ooh, polycarbonate -- my favorite!

4/1/03

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